Yesterday was my first breakdown and somehow it got carried away till today. I started to think that I lost my purpose in life. I started to feel like I’m exhausted with my life.
Eventhough I got counsel by few of my friends but yet my mindset doesn’t change. I don’t usually acted this way or have this kind of thought. It’s just tiring and exhausting.
I do realise it is just an unnecessary thought and worries but I can’t seem to be ok. What actually happen to me? Why do I feel this way? What should I do!? What actually that I need? Where is the old me that take life seriously and find every solution to my problems.
Tbh, I feel like suicidal but that will just make things worse. I tried to pray to the lord but my mind like running crazily. I can’t really find what the cause.
I wrote it here and let others read it because I need help. I need a solution. I need to be myself again. I swear this is tiring.