The moment I feel useless

Yesterday was my first breakdown and somehow it got carried away till today. I started to think that I lost my purpose in life. I started to feel like I’m exhausted with my life.

Eventhough I got counsel by few of my friends but yet my mindset doesn’t change. I don’t usually acted this way or have this kind of thought. It’s just tiring and exhausting.

I do realise it is just an unnecessary thought and worries but I can’t seem to be ok. What actually happen to me? Why do I feel this way? What should I do!? What actually that I need? Where is the old me that take life seriously and find every solution to my problems.

Tbh, I feel like suicidal but that will just make things worse. I tried to pray to the lord but my mind like running crazily. I can’t really find what the cause.

I wrote it here and let others read it because I need help. I need a solution. I need to be myself again. I swear this is tiring.

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Author: muddmitaq

I am a multi disciplinary artist lived in singapore. I did fashion, graphics, interior and product design and I also enjoy painting my canvases with different mediums.

2 thoughts on “The moment I feel useless”

  1. Sometimes we all can feel the same at some point of time . It’s just a phase and you will move on Try to look in to yourself and meditate and ask yourself what is making you unhappy once you know that then you can do something about it because when we ignore ourselves our feelings and our desires slowly we become disconnected and then this feeling of depression sets I wish I could help you more Hope you get over it soon Take care

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    1. Thank you so much! It just happened to me for once so I. Kindda got anxious and panicked of not knowing what step should I make at first to change it. But I’m feeling much much better after I got counsel by therapist

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