Keeping back to track.

It’s been a while I stopped blogging. I took the the time to compose my thoughts on what my purpose in life. Actually it is not that hard to recognize the problems when you undergo the depression state. What you need is just the time to think through and do some reflection on your life.

Anyways enough of the sad story of life, life still gotta move on.

Today I would like to share and show my gratitude to some people that I’ve met for the past few months.

If you keep track with my earlier post, I think I mentioned that I went through counseling on my depression. And I am glad and grateful that somehow it helps me alot. I would like to say my thanks to Anwar and hetty for being there with me and woke me up from my lala land.

Allow me to emphasize this, I am sharing my stories/experiences not because I want a sympathy from anyone but I really believe every human living in this world will face the same problems and they might have the same solution. The least I could do is to offer some advice.

Lately, I have been active in the art scene. All thanks to Mr Jalal for believing in me and my talent and open up the platform for me to grow and get more exposure in the art scene. He is the one that pulled me to a malay art organization called Angkatan Pelukis Aneka Daya (APAD). From there, I have been participated in many art exhibition and got to know many artist. Such as Mr Ramli, Mr Kamal, Mr suhaimi and many more. If time permits I will compile the pictures of the art shows that I participated individually and blog about it.

So as for now I only gonna briefly share on the exhibition that I have been participated.

My first art exhibition is at NUVE heritage hotel opening with Mr Jalal and other artist.I exhibited my work that I did for an exhibition at National Art Museum singapore under ‘700years:Singapura’. It is a hand drawn sketch of an old trading chinese house in Singapore during the WW2. The Chinese calligraphy was written as ‘the golden twin pagoda’ if im not mistaken.

Then on Sept 28,2017, I participated in RUMPUN which held in BANDUNG. As for this exhibition I exhibited my piece which called ‘ketulusan cinta’ which means the sincerity of love. This artpiece basically just an expression what a love means. The calla flowers representing the purity and sincerity while the background showing the boldness, the strength of love and the meaning of love. It is written in malay language. I will elaborate more when I blog about it later.

After a few months later, I worked on my new artpiece that was exhibited at ION ART GALLERY SINGAPORE, on 22 Dec 2017. As for this artwork I chose to paint a backyard scene. I specifically chose this scene because I noticed only few shop houses that still have this type of spiral staircase. It is hard for us to find a new houses with spiral staircase. And I also love the old and nostalgic feel of it.

So now the forth one, I participated and exhibited my artpieces at KUALA LUMPUR, it is curated by a team of artists that representing the 3 different countries which is Indonesia, Malaysia and Singapore. This exhibition called IMAGO MUNDI KUALA LUMPUR. For this exhibition, I exhibited my series works that is called ‘Priorities’. It was held at Hulo Hotel on 5 January 2018. This pieces basically shows a movement of a dancer expressing the freedom, the joy and the greatest passion that they pursuing. The colours represent the emotion and the determination of the dancers.

At this exhibition I met with a group of fun, interesting and experience artist and I am glad that I get the chance to know them. They have been given me many advices and through the stories and experiences that they shared. I also learnt a lot in all aspect such as, life, art related stuff, love, fashion trend and many more. And accidentally we were named as ‘geng 44’. I will elaborate more later when I get the chance. But yes I would like to say my thanks to all of in G44 that gives me hope and never stopped motivates each other and care for each other to grow to be a better artist and a person in life. I really appreciate the time we spent and I’m grateful that God has set us to know each other and make us as a team. Allow me to mention the members of G44, Fazelah, Dino, naff, Gazz and Eja! Thanks guys for the friendship!

Anyways, and now I am preparing for my 2 upcoming exhibition which is the first one will be soon, on 10 Feb 2018 @ NUVE heritage hotel, the exhibition called, Space 11,Cloud 9. For this exhibition I’m exhibiting my 2previous pieces which is the backyard scene and the golden twin pagoda.

And the second upcoming exhibition will be on 28 March 2018 @ fairmont hotel at Jakarta. As for this exhibition, I exhibiting my 2 series of bipolar. Basically I chose my cats to be the subject. The painting shows two faced of cats with a different colourful background that directed to the different types of character and emotion. I purposely chose my cats because all of them have a different character and that characters are totally reflected me as a person.

In the past I used to be so curious in everything and I will make myself to try it and experience it. I chose that decision I’ve made and I aware the choices will either ends me up to a bad or good feeling. And yes I have no regrets to making those choices. And that’s the the reasons why I chose my cats as the subject. Like an old saying

Curiosity kills the cats.

And lastly I also would like to both bosses that I worked with in M3 STUDIO. they have been very supportive and understanding and patience enough to entertained my bullshit. Lol. And bosses if by chance u read this blog I really would like to say my deepest thanks to both of u for everything. And I am grateful God set my path to be with u guys as for me to learn from u guys. Its an eye opening for me…

OK as I mentioned earlier I would love to blog and share my journey in the art scene that I’ve been participated. And definitely this will drag me for a long period of time for me to compile them and blog about it. I think it is a good thing!! At least I have a topic to share, rather than the sad stories every single time.

Let me know of what u think about my blog! And if by chance u interested on my artpieces do follow me in my insta @muddmitaq or email me Ya. Wish me luck and may more doors of opportunities opens for me to experience and expose my capabilities and my talents to the world /society!

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Ways to overcome depression

After going through depression, it is not easy for us to go back to track. We will definitely start to lose passion in things that we are doing, we tend to isolate ourself more often, we afraid if something will trigger our anxiety emotion and many more. stop thinking too much Here are few steps that I did to overcome it.

1) we need to unload all our worries and problems by sharing it to trust ones or counsellor. Through sharing, somehow it ease the pain in us. At this state, we are not on the right mind to think what is right and wrong to do, act or move. Maybe by sharing, the other parties could advise us on the right thing to do? We wouldn’t know.

2) everytime when that worries come. Try to write it down on a paper. Usually it will comes in a questions. Your mind will start asking you all sort of questions that sometimes doesn’t make sense. So just write it down. From there we can recognise the worries and try to overcome it step at a time.

3) stop thinking too much. Don’t let the mind set the thoughts. We should control the thoughts. By letting the thoughts to control your mind, it will surely leads you to worries, stress and make u sad or anxious.

4) Have faith and pray to the lord. I, myself not that religious at the first place to tell u on this but somehow it helps. I believe in whatever religion you are, by hurting yourself will just make you more sinner and that’s not the way out to every problem we have. God have planned our route well. He tested us because he knew we can handle it and to widens up our minds to life experiences and go through it in faith. There will definitely be a happiness at the end of the of the route.

5)don’t isolate yourself. Go for a walk at a park, go for trekking, walk the dog out or whatever that can make you to enjoy the scenery and appreciate the nature. Scientifically proven by go to nature area like park, jungle, hill and many more it helps to freshen our minds and release our problems.

6) lastly, through this period you may know who are your true friends. Who will come to you and show that they cares for you, they treasure your friendship. it is the time for you to cut loose the relationship with the one that you thought ur ‘bestfriend’ but never once they ask you about your wellbeing or what so ever. I totally understand maybe they busy but come on if let say you post it on the Facebook that you are under depression, can’t they at least take a few minutes just to show compassion and emphaty. If they really understand your situation I think they don’t mind to hear you out and help you as much as they can to lessen your worries or troubles. This is through my experience lately. Lol.

I hope it is helpful to those who are having depression and lost on what to do. Remember by hurting yourself you will only hurts others who cares for you.

There’s once a person told me. Respect yourself first, show that you love yourself from there people will come to you and appreciate you.

Trip to Kuala Lumpur

It’s been a while I never travel therefore here are  some sharing of my trip to KL.  my parents and I took a bus from Singapore to KL and personally  I enjoy it as not much hustle or jammed.  Everything went smooth as in the traffic and crowd. We passes through a lot of palm plantation and awesome sceneries along the way.  Here are some of the views I managed to snap. 

It’s so breathtaking as you can’t find this scenery at singapore, the concrete jungle. 

We stayed at Berjaya times Square hotel and I recommend you guys to stay here as the price is reasonable and I get to wake up and welcomed by the view of KLCC.  

We didn’t do much on the first day as we are kinda tired. 

After our awesome breakfast in hotel,  we went for sight seeing at KLCC area and that was my main intention coming here  as it was my first time here.  Lol. 

Anyways not much different from Singapore, still a concrete jungle but at least there’s a silhouette of mountains that can make  you imagine and dream of nice things.  

We visited the aquaria of KLCC and still singapore aquarium still the best eventhough I haven’t had a chance to go there.  I know it’s bigger and wider range of sea creatures.  Here I share few pics of took

I think we spend less than 1/2hour to appreaciate and see the exhibits. Another words it’s not big and  we paid 64 ringgit. I guess it’s OK for a first timer like me. 

Next we went wondering around KLCC and snap few more pics for memories sake. 

It’s nice but tiring as we walk a lot.  After a whole day of sightseeing we went for a little shopping at kenangga mall. My parents said it’s cheap  personally I don’t really like it as the people there are not that friendly as Berjaya times Square shopping mall and more varieties of things I could find at btsm. 

Finally while both my parents decided to rest in the hotel after a whole day walking and accompanying me I decided to get a quick massage at one of the Thai massage place in btsm. It’s is recommended to go.  The massage is good and really relaxing.  And guys please I’m not referring to happy ending ya as I’m not really interested on that kind of things. Hahah. 

To end up the night I went solo to bukit bintang. Surprisingly there’s like a lot of happening bars, performance and food place. But I dnt really feel safe walking here alone not as my solo trips to Cambodia or Thailand it feels so weird people here giving me one kind of look.  But overall I enjoy it.  

My initial plan was that to continue my solo trip to sabah for more adventure but I gotta postpone it as I have booked a yatch to go fishing with my dad on Sat at singapore. Dammmnnn  but it’s OK. More adventure to come!! Woohoo! 

Life of choice

As a human beings,  we faced many challenges in every corner of our life.  Problems after problems will come by and test us.  

 Why life is so unfair? 

Why life is so difficult? 

Why can’t I have a peace of mind  in life? 

Why life doesn’t go as I planned? 

Why do I have to face this problems?

Many a times I told and share my friends that I know,  life will only be easy and free when you no more longer breathe.  All things that happen to us have planned by the almighty.  He knows our strength and weakness.  But the question now did we know ours? I doubt so.. 

Not all of us can accept the challenges that were thrown to us. I always believed in life we were given many routes of choices to choose,  either one will lead us to happiness and sadness.   I don’t think there’s problems that can’t be solved. 

Humans mistakes or problems were just a repeatation,  we just need to learn from others and improvise it and move on. Some just need to repeat in order  to kill their curiosity. But did we know that curiosity is not all good to have.  We don’t have to be curious.  We don’t have to experience certain things in order to know it.  

One mistakes we made is WE ARE NOT TAKING A RESPONSIBLE DESICION AND WE DON’T RESPECT OURSELF. I know not all but only some of us but I say this through my experiences.  

I am a person who always wanted to know and open to new things.  Sometimes I don’t even realise that I am addicted to it.  I am referring  to all different types of things from things we consume,  places we go,  feeling on our body and many more. Sometimes we were blinded by the enjoyment till we forget of the outcomes.

Most of us agreed that we have to show some respect to others but ARE WE ACTUALLY RESPECTING OURSELF

WHY DO WE HAVE TO HURT OURSELF JUST FOR SOMETHING SUCH AS FAME, STATUS, LOVE AND POWER? 

ARE WE MADE TO BE LIKE THIS? WHERE IS THE LOVE? 

WHY DO WE CARE SO MUCH ON WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT US? 

WHY WE FEEL SO SELF CONSCIOUS ON EVERY ACTION WE MADE? 

WHY  MUST WE COMPETING WITH OTHERS?

 Many old minded people think that all problems solved in the same way or method but do they even realise that our life now gets harder and harder? Why is that so? 

Honestly,  I would blame technologies  that actually make us this way.  We were brainwashed,  we were given an expectation to achieve,  we were fooled by the things we see.  

Try imagine we living in a jungle or a small town away from high technologies. Do you think we will have such mindset? I doubt so 

Why do we have to care on what we wear? 

Why do we have to share our problems to technologies than talking to our parents.  

but this is a reality,  we have to compete to live,  we think to feel,  the only advise I could say is we actually should follow our pattion in doing something from there we will start to love the things we do,  we accepted challenges we face,  we respect ourself better.  We don’t even have to think so much on what other feels. … 

THIS IS LIFE…..




My art world

It’s been a long time I never paint and definitely I will paint again soon.  Here’s are a few art pieces I have done so far.
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A multimedia painting from Samsung s4 phone of a seahorse

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A multimedia painting on Samsung s4 phone of a shark

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A multimedia art on Samsung S4 of a skeleton

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A scenery from a rooftop that i stay in funky backpack @ Cambodia

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A watercoloured painting of ANG KOR WAT

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A golden monkey sketch while in the bus for a long ride @Cambodia

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Unfinished acrylic painting of a ko pond

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An acrylic painting of a lily flower.(sold out)

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An acrylic painting of a zebra face (sold out)

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A live painting held @paya lebar station in Singapore

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A coloured pencil drawing of a fighting fish

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Pen drawing of a sword fish to exhibit in national museum of Singapore for #700yearsofsingapura

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Water coloured painting of a coconut to exhibit @national museum of singapore under Japanese occupation

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A shark painting with acrylic paint

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An acrylic paint on canvas of an elephant

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An acrylic painting on canvas of a gorilla

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Acrylic painting on canvas of a tiger

So if you wish me to paint a canvas for a present or for self or would like to enquire do not hesitate to drop me an email @ m.masyfu@outlook.com